Still here!

Forgive me bloggers for I have sinned; it has been 11-weeks since my last confession….

But, oh! what an 11-weeks it has been!

My last post on here was 21st March; in which I was suffering a mild setback from “doing a lot”.  To say that my last bout of “doing a lot” will knock my previous record out the water will be an understatement… Continue reading


I’ve been feeling decidedly off-kilter since returning from my fantastic holiday in Cornwall (more of that later when I have energy to post something) and I haven’t been able to shake it with a careful balance of rest and activity in the week and a half since I’ve been back Continue reading

Decisions, Decisions!

One of the most frustrating things about having CFS is having to make decisions on what I do and don’t do in any one day/week.

In my mind, now that I am out of the dark days of hypothyroid and CFS induced fugue, I am no different to how I was in my gap year (scarily, 17 years and half my lifetime ago now) before I had Glandular Fever where I would work shifts – either early 6am-2pm or late 2-10pm – ride the horse most weekdays as well as going jive dancing 2-3 times a week. Continue reading

Time and Motion

I’m away house/dog sitting again this week and, as happened last time, I realise that I have let my step-count dwindle since I stopped wearing my pedometer every day.  It is difficult when I am working hard to build up my business which is mainly desk-based.

I have always struggled with working hard at work and working to maintain my fitness; getting home (or leaving the home office) after a busy day leaves you reaching for the quick and easy choice for supper, which is not always the healthiest choice.  When dragging your tired body out of bed ready to start another busy day the last thing I want to do is jump on the cross-trainer, even though it is right by the bed (which I try and avoid looking at so as to not feel guilty).  You may have the time, but don’t have the energy or you may have the energy but not the time.

I have been keeping up with the riding, which at times has been the one thing that gets me going through the day: my “raison d’etre” when I wonder what all the hard work is for.  I’m really enjoying the ‘map my run’ app on my phone and using it to track the rides we go out on – especially useful for tracking the fitness of the horses too, giving top and average speeds and an accurate track of our mileage (then you realise that the dog has also been coming with us on our 7-8 mile rides).  Having kept up with the riding, which is good all over exercise, I’m not so unprepared for the dog walking I do when I’m dog-sitting but I do need to make sure that I do 20 minutes on the cross trainer every day.

I haven’t been doing my EAP exercises, although I have been trying to stick to the nutritional plan and last week I had lost another couple of inches although the weight hadn’t changed much.  Not sure what this week’s measurements are going to bring as I fell off the wheat wagon and am struggling to get back on the straight and narrow.  I always find it difficult with the change in the seasons, not that we’ve really had a summer to speak of, when the nights draw in.

Since receiving my diagnosis of CFS and getting set on the road to recovery, I have always known that I need to prioritise my fitness as equally important as my work because without maintaining my fitness, I will not have the stamina and energy to do my work.  I have always hoped to be able to work not-quite full time in order to devote some of the time that would normally be spent working to building and maintaining my fitness.  However, to get to that point working for yourself means that you have to work more than full time to initially build up your client base which adds an extra challenge.

I’m now 3-years on from my diagnosis of Hypothyroidism and CFS and sometimes can’t believe how far I’ve come: from someone who was not far off being bed-ridden to someone who would be considered ‘moderately active’ (or ‘Active’ when I keep up with my step-count).  I still have a way to go to get to the level of fitness I want but when I worry that I won’t be able to get there, I just have to look at what I have already achieved – and also at the determination that kept me going before my diagnosis – and I know I can do it.   I hope it doesn’t take me another three years to get there but if it does then it does and it’s still a great achievement.

Know your limits

If there is one thing I have learnt over the last two and a half years since my diagnosis with CFS and Hypothyroidism, it is to listen to my body and know when I can push myself and when I need to step back from the ‘edge’ of my physical limits.

This week has been a case-in-point: Wednesday I had I quite an intense day, busy and finished off with 2-hours of networking with the Southern Entrepreneurs group. I have always found the mental effects of the CFS and hypothyroidism the hardest to deal with and there was a long time when I couldn’t cope with socialising with more than one person at a time. Being in a room with lots of people talking at the same time was a real challenge. Having said that, I am now much improved and can cope with loud parties, chatting to many people at once and “all that jazz”.

However, Wednesday evening I had reached my physical and mental limit and my EAP exercises were the thing that had to give to avoid a major set-back.

Similarly, yesterday (Thursday, I’m writing this on a train with minimal interwebs connection so not sure when this will upload) when I had intended to do two lots of EAP exercises, one morning, one evening, to make up for missing Wednesday, I knew I couldn’t push my body that extra bit. Today (Friday) was a different story, I did my “Riders in Balance” and “Weighed in, weighed in, horses away” workouts together. I did find it a challenge going into the second lot of excises but as much as a struggle as it was, the feedback I was getting from my body meant I knew I could safely push myself bit by bit to get through it all without setting myself up for a fall.

If you are looking to get into exercising, already starting but finding it hard to sustain the exercise; take the time to get to know your body. Find out its limits. Learn to read the signs of fatigue so you know when you can keep going and push through the block, and when you are pushing too hard and need to stop.

Your body is pretty clever, it knows it’s limits. You just need to learn to listen to them and not ignore the signs.