The shape of things to come

At this moment I can honestly say that I am really enjoying my life.

That is something I’ve not been able to say for a very long time.  There are still small pockets of my life that I could wish were different (or simply ‘there’ rather than not!) but they are the ‘added extras’ and the rest of my life is still pretty damn great without them.

My business is picking up with my first main client going really well, just starting out with a second client and the prospects for the future looking good.

I’m also feeling stronger – physically and mentally – than I have in a long time.  I’ve just had a very busy few weeks with a horrid cold, a very busy time with a client, an emotional whirlwind and the usual monthly hormonal tumult to contend with, and I survived.  I not only survived but I’ve come out of it stronger because I’m confident that I can feel when my body is telling me to slow down and even though I did have a CFS setback (full-on trapped in body, unable to even open my eyes stuff) it was only a minor one and I’ve been able to manage it and pick myself up and get back on my feet swiftly.

The weight is coming off slowly and steadily – which is a good thing because it not only is less likely to go back on, but I’ll have a chance to get to adjust slowly to my ‘renewed’ shape & size.  With Pilates and dashing up and down the stairs when I’m in with my client I’m starting to tone up and can finally see a time when I’m back to somewhere near the body I had when I was 18 before it all started.  The biggest breakthrough I have had with the weight loss is when I realised that I was using food as an antidepressant.  I went to the doctor and got prescribed a low dose of antidepressants – having discussed the options of CBT and counseling which I’ve tried and haven’t made an impact – and it has made a huge difference.  Food is now just something to fuel my body through the day and something to enjoy on a night out with friends… it is no longer a compulsion.

All in all, things are going well and I’m enjoying the ride.  I’ve got a load of fun plans lined up and am looking forward to the future.

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